31.5.09
When it, all comes down. To a sunrise, on the east side..
Will you be there to carry home the remains of my wasted youth?
Will you be there to carry home the remains of my wasted youth?
Aloysious Foong Chee Hou,
aka xiaoLove.
BLOODbrother of mine.
I'm not fit to call you brother..
but reminince about our good times ya?
Remember how th name xiaolove came about? I was xiaocorrupt back then, you were w 'jurong'; and you asked me, what nick was good fr you. it took me 3 secs, and thought. xiao..love? And you've used it since. People tend to say we look the same. But, i guess they're proven wrong. I, was th bad kid. and you, you're the best. Best i've ever had.
I still remember how we used to ton in my old room. You, me & glen. and how we used to go down KB just to meet Rashid,yck vik & co. Good times yea? From 180 , to this morning sengtua at 339. How much we've shared. How much we've went through. Dude. It hurt me, as much as it hurt you. I was being a selfish fuck. Thinking just to protect Hannah by all means, that i put our bond aside. I went bonkers, i went berserk. I know i acted like a madman. But that's cos i want to protect hannah. But i guess i protected her, in the wrong way.
"Have you thought of how I feel , how he feel ? He cried oud , 7years of brothership you treated him like that , without knowing what exactly happened . I bear my hearbreak , turned them into hatred , perhaps . Watching him bleed , helping him clean up , th bottle crushed in my hand . If you ever thought of brothership , why couldnt you cool down and talked first ? Then now ? admit you are partly at fault too , got use ? WHY IS HE TH ONE SUFFERING ALL THIS ?! WHY.IS.HIM ?!" quoted from qianhui's blog.
Bro, I stopped when i saw you bleed. I wanted to kneel down, but my mind was letting me. I dont know why i acted like i did. If you say i didnt hurt for every punch i flew, or that i didnt treat you as brother.. Then, i'm made speechless. i promise. I wont bother you from now on. Never will i bother any of you. Forget the bad me, remember the good ol' times. Forgive me for being your bro, dont forgive for what i've done.
I've sinned.
Treacious
it's okay. I know you hate me now. I know. But it's all alright. I dont ask for forgiveness, i know i've sinned. But it's all okay. You're allowed to hate me. But please, dont hate Hannah. I did what i did cos i just wanted to protect her. She was hurting, I could see, when she asked did i tell anyone i took away her v. and it was shocking when you said then that i never say cannot say. I mean well this time round, i never wanted so much conflict. never did. Try putting yourself in both me and hannah's shoes. You've said your share, she's said her share. But come together it isnt only aloy and you hurt. All was hurt. You think i didnt hurt for every punch i threw?
Yes, you would say "if it hurt why still punch?!"; but all i thought of then was to protect her. She was so down. You saw me running to find her that day didnt you? She was in her worst state. When she asked me, i really. really. Lost it..
I dont ask for forgiveness from you, which i know is impossible. All i ask, is forgive hannah. K?
Corruption marked 5/31/2009 11:21:00 PM